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Making a Bipolar Budget: Because Money Can Buy Happiness   Leave a comment

Whoever said money can’t buy happiness is delusional.  Obviously you can not walk into the supermarket and pick up a box of happiness, roll up a dollar bill and smoke it for instant happiness, or even just hold onto a big wad of cash and suddenly be awash in the warm well being of happiness.

But if you are underwater with your credit cards and about to lose your home, winning the lottery will make you happy.  Or if you’re tired of looking like a park ranger driving that fifteen year old hand-me-down Subaru Forrester, and you get a big bonus at work, buying a 2013 Lexus is bound to make you extremely happy.  Even if you’re depressed, simply knowing money is not one of your problems has got to make you a little happy.

When you’re bipolar money plays an even more significant role in your life.  If you don’t have it it’s one more thing to be depressed about.  Paying for your doctor and your medications are as important as your rent.  And if you don’t have enough for both, you have to decide whether you want to be functional but homeless or have a roof over your head while you wallow without medication in misery.

If you’re of modest means, experiencing bipolar depression and have credit cards, you might use them to bring you comfort; keep all your movie channels, make sure you have unlimited texting, if you’re feeling miserable you can order your favorite delivery every night and hire a cleaning lady twice a week for your studio apartment since cleaning stresses you out.  Although depressed, the credit cards have brought you a degree of happiness until you reach your limits and have to declare bankruptcy.  Then you are really depressed as the well hath run dry.

And if you are manic, money for sure can bring happiness.  You can take your friends out to dinner, order the best wine, change luxury cars like you change your socks, live in a great condo, have a fine Swiss watch for every day of the week and everything else that comes with wealth… However if you’re manic sooner or later you are going to bust out.  And when you are no longer big man on campus and have to start selling the things that brought you so much happiness, they leave you with only depression.   You end up writhing in pain for what you had, how you squandered it and your new lot in life as an ordinary schlump.

So you see,  money does buy happiness.  But the one caveat is it all depends on how you use it.  However if you are in deep bipolar depression or in lofty mania, your judgement is skewed on how to properly disseminate your loot.  If you don’t have cash on hand, borrowing it could cause your money to turn around and attack you when it comes time to start paying it back.   Then come the harassing phone calls from collection agencies making sure you feel like a deadbeat, the repo man taking your car so all your neighbors will think you’re a deadbeat, and the trip to the bankruptcy attorney when you yourself realize you are a deadbeat.

Whether your bipolar comes with mostly depression, mania or hypomania, you have to be extra vigilant with how you handle your finances.  Remember, if money buys happiness, then having none brings just the opposite; misery.   If you don’t have a lot, put together a workable budget when you are feeling well.  If you suffer a deep depression, stay on that budget.  You can trust it to work even when your mind isn’t.  Feel secure in the fact you have a plan that works which will take care of you in your time of illness.  Simple financial security for even the poorest of the poor is very comforting when going through a significant bipolar depressive episode.

The same goes for bipolars who’s illness manifests itself in mania.  Even if you have financial resources, you still need a budget.  Otherwise you’ll overspend, start using credit and end up losing it all when you can’t pay it back.  Then you’ll take the same walk of shame to bankruptcy court.   If you have money, there is no reason why you can not have nice things.  But budget how much you can spend on non-necessities vs what you need to comfortably pay your bills. Again, if you do have a manic episode, stick to the budget no matter what you think you can afford.  If you are positive something is a good move within your financial means, it will still be a good move when you come back down from your manic episode.

Our entire society and reward system revolves around money.  And Bipolar Disease causes its sufferers to have issues with depression, mania and self-worth.  In a society where money can ease depression and increase self-worth, its interaction with bipolar people can be profound.  Furthermore, unless we become a society without currency, which does not exist anywhere even if we’re talking about trading chickens and cows in Africa, people with Bipolar Disease have to make a conscious effort to budget and stick with it.  Especially when they are in a state of depression or mania and not thinking clearly.  A budget will get them through the hard times without escalation.  Otherwise, bankruptcy will be one more ugly aspect in their bipolar basket of a broken life.

A Bipolar White House?   2 comments

Last night I was watching MSNBC with Lawrence O’Donnell and he was showing footage of a speech Mit Romney made yesterday more or less accepting the Presidential candidacy nomination for the Republican Party.  I say more or less because he won most of the states in the primary, so it was pretty much a given.  His self-congratulatory speech was like me buying a house and then making a bloated speech to my real estate agent accepting the property.

The thing that bothered me most is that for many of Romney’s statements, Lawrence O’Donnell juxtaposed footage of him blatantly contradicting himself.  At first I thought I was watching a skit from Saturday Night Live.  It would have been the first funny thing they did in ten years.  Worse yet, he began revising history of how President Obama was the one who created the deficit, that we are still in a downward recession and Obama wants to make the United States a secular nation.  If you think any of this is true, you need to get out of your trailer more and stop watching FOX News.

Most revolting, is Romney wants to double the tax rate on student loans.  Well, he claims he doesn’t, but video footage shows him saying on camera at a rally students shouldn’t be relying on loans and interest rate discounts.  They should pay their full ride with no assistance.  But now he’s for keeping the student loan interest rates from doubling.  If Mit Romney went to a psychiatrist, I guarantee you’d find some major issues.  A main psychopathic feature is the ability to lie with no remorse.

However, you can’t just blame Mit.  The entire GOP is constantly rewriting history in an overt effort to bring President Obama down.  I honestly believe it’s because they can’t stand having a young magnetic black man in the White House.  And if they have to go into liar’s-overdrive, then so be it.  Wasn’t there a movie in the early 1980’s with Clint Eastwood and a Chimpanzee side-kick called “Any Which Way You Can?”  Well right now Mit is the Republican Party’s Chimp doing it “Any Which Way He Can.”

Everybody tells lies to some extent.  When I was at my obsessive compulsive worst trading in my car every six months for a new one,  I told my critics I could sell each one for even money, so why shouldn’t I drive what I want when I want?  The truth be known, I was losing a fortune trading cars in so frequently, but I couldn’t stop my compulsion.  But I was embarrassed and trying to hide my bipolar disorder.  And the only person I was hurting was myself.

The thing is, in all my bipolar illness, I would never tell a lie that would effect someone else.   If I lied, it was to keep people from finding out about my OCD, depression, a suicide attempt, a hospitalization or the likes.  I never disparaged anyone or tried to harpoon their character for my benefit.  And although bipolar people are not less prone to lying, they are not more prone either.  And I don’t think the majority of people in the world are liars either.

Then we see these republicans telling lies the size of hot air ballons that do affect our country in a negative way.   There are also a lot of stupid people out there who believe this rhetoric and republicans seem to have no remorse feeding them this political fodder in the form of pert little sound bite suppositories.    Worst of all, they literally ignore the fact their lying can be documented.  This is psychopathic behavior.

I’m still waiting for a Republican to stand up in Washington and say “this is ridiculous!  The Republican Party has gone too far!  Republicans and Tea Partiers, line up for a psychiatric evaluation at the Lincoln Memorial!”  I think it would look just like a mostly white Million Man March.

I could never run for President.  After all, I’m Bipolar II.  I could get depressed, go to bed and sleep through the passage of an amendment to the constitution.  Or, I could get hypomanic and keep threatening to launch a missel at France if they don’t send me over a wheel of brie every Friday.  I might even have an OCD flair up and start trying to conquer nations that start with the letter “M.”  No, the United States could never have a bipolar man in the White House.

A psychopathic liar out to destroy the President because his vindictive political party can’t stand to have a successful democrat, little yet an African American in the White House?  Now that’s OK with a lot of Americans.  But not a bipolar.  That’s way too dangerous.